I’m not going to lie. I cried my eyes out when I heard the news. Hell, I cry my eyes out every night. I don’t let my wife see me though. She wouldn’t want to see me like that. She has been so brave and I don’t want to let her know how afraid I am. I am so afraid of losing her. She was diagnosed with breast cancer and I didn’t have anything I could do about it.

I’m just afraid of losing her but that looks unavoidable if I can’t make the insurance premiums. If I miss a premium the whole contract gets renegotiated. I can’t afford to let that happen. The insurance companies will raise our rates to outrageous amounts. I won’t be able to afford them ever and my wife won’t get the treatments she needs.

I have to make the very next payment. I know I can find money for ones after it if I keep my head up. I looked online and found something called a car title loan. I seemed like instant money in my pocket. There were car title loans in Knoxville, Tennessee right near where I live. It was easy to apply for one and I didn’t have to worry about my next payment.

I still cry my eyes out but I don’t know what I would do if I lost her. I don’t think I’d be able to get over it ever.

-Howie D.

Knoxville, Tennessee